Thursday, March 29, 2018

The Vendor (From life in Short and other Stories)


The Calcutta monsoons are but a vicious torment to the Feriwala (travelling hawker) who go around streets selling their merchandise.

The police are a constant annoyance for 12 months of a year and the monsoons double it up for two months it stays in the city. It literally brings all to a state of destitution - these unfortunate Feriwalas most of whom earn their livelihood from the streets.

In this business one cannot hope to sell ones wares if one is confined indoors because of the merciless monsoon rains. This morning the sky had cleared up a bit which had prompted Jamal to leave his house. However within an hour the sky had again broken out in torrential downpour. Jamal took refuge under the balcony of an old dilapidated house and cursed his luck and the weather. But his body seemed to accede to this sudden recess. As if it actually welcomed this abrupt opportunity to rest. It seemed to Jamal that his body was getting feebler by the day. He was getting tired too easily.   

The damp weather had sorely manacled his earnings which in turn had affected the food supply for him and his family of four. He had two saddlebags, one that contained sarees and bed sheets and the other that contained handmade towels (Gaamcha) – both that had never seemed too heavy for him to carry now felt like a considerably weight. But it puzzled his as to why on earth would his load become heavy? Where would he get supply of wares that would make his consignment heavy? He had started his career by hawking towels; it’s only recently that he had taken on the sarees and bed sheets.

It’s off late that he had started reeling under the weight of his saddlebags. Within a few miles of walk he used to feel breathless. Walking seemed difficult by the day and he just somehow dragged his body ahead. Shouting out his wares seemed to take a lot of effort and his lungs almost burst out in violent bouts of cough.

‘Do you sell sarees?’ A feeble woman’s voice came from behind.

On turning back Jamal saw a little boy, maybe six or seven in a scraggy shorts and dirty shirt leaning against the half open door. But the enquiry didn’t come from him. It came from a feeble woman’s voice from behind the door.

‘Yes Ammi I have sarees. Do you want to see some?’

‘Yes please can you show me some?’

Jamal handed over the black and red Taangail saree to the little boy. This was the best he had in his lot. A trifle expensive too. But it was one of the best of the lot bought from the Akram Mia the best weaver at Kalihati. This one had a red Jori or silk yarn that was used for making its edges. This was one of notably the best amongst his hand woven Taant (cotton) sarees and the most expensive too. Jamal had been carrying this for the last twelve days without any luck. No one was ready to buy such an expensive saree. As matter of fact no one even wanted to further the negotiations once Jamal quoted his price.  

The same thing happened here as well. Once he mentioned the price the saree was promptly returned back to him.

‘Don’t you have anything cheaper?’

He showed three to four less priced cotton ones through the little boy, which was returned with no consequence. Things started reaching the negotiation levels once he sent his light green Taant with a diffident red border. Jamal raised his price to ten rupees as he excitedly starts giving a posy to his ware, while the other party slowly raised her quote from four rupees. The deal was finally settled for six rupees.

The ladies have become experts in arbitrations thought Jamal. A man would probably hesitate to quote almost half price of an item but the women do it so effortlessly.

The little boy handed over to him a one rupee note and another rupee in coins. Two rupees in total

‘Can you please take the remaining after two days?’ Came the gentle implore from inside.

‘I am sorry Ammi I don’t sell on credit. I have a very small business and I really can’t afford to give out credit.’ Was Jamal’s firm but snug response.   

But Jamal did give out credit to his customers. His transactions were usually in the afternoon with housewives. In most cases the ladies didn’t have enough money or sometimes even if they had the money, they didn’t have the authorization to spend it. Hence the possibility of credit always loomed in his occupation.

He had to comply to this even if the customer was a complete stranger. Sitting in the corridor he normally tried to gauge about the family from as much of the room indoors, the manner of talking and over all demeanor of the customer that was visible to him. He needed to use this information to evaluate whether it would be judicious to leave his merchandise with them on credit. But this customer had been completely evasive. She had carried out the entire transaction from behind the doors, not coming out even once. The ladies rarely held any inhibition to come in front of Feriwalas.   

This was no situation where one can consider the possibility of giving out credit. One might even encounter a direful situation of being told ‘Why no one had taken any saree in this house?’ ‘Who did you sell your ware to my man?’ Again the soft beseeching voice peters out from inside, ‘If you come back in just two more days, you’d surely get back your money. Please believe me.’

‘I am sorry Ammi. I am helpless.’

There is silence for a while. Then the door creaked open and then a dark-skinned and adumbral lady steps up to him behind the door wearing his green and red saree.

‘You have called me Ammi, you have to give me two days’ time else you have to open it from my body.’ She said in a doleful tone. ‘My clothes are all gone. I could only come in front of you wearing your saree.’

Jamal didn’t have anything to say after this. He waited for half an hour more in that porch and quietly left with an insipid state after the rain subsided. He was now in the hem of the city and the village. He walked slowly through the meandering muddy roads and sometimes shouted his wares. The city and the village have not completely merged in this place. It had merely come close abruptly intermingling in a few places. The moss covered pond still created a stark contrast with the dazzling neighbouring cinema hall and the gap was much wider than the small stone wall that separated it.

There were so many vendors who walked the streets of the city, but Jamal knew very well that it’s the call of the Cotton printed sarees and blouse that received that highest attention in these neighborhoods. Many inquisitive and tempted feminine faces came peeping behind the curtains only at the sound of this particular merchandise.    

Just after sunset Jamal started off towards his small house near Rajabazar. Just before his house he crossed another vendor like him carrying a basketful of Aluminum utensils. He stopped Jamal and asked ‘How much are the sarees brother?’

‘It ranges between fourteen and fifteen rupees.’
‘Fifteen! You don’t have anything around ten?’
Jamal quietly nodded and started walking over towards his house. 

At home Amina asked him about his day’s business.

‘Not good.’

Amina’s saree he observed was almost in tatters. She usually wore it at home. She had another one that she had kept carefully to be worn when she went out to do the cleaning work at Chowdhury Babu’s house.  He himself had only one more set of shirt, a torn trouser and a Gaamcha.

Jamal lowered his two saddle bags in one corner and stretched out on the old bedstead. Amina kept on talking with her  monologue. ‘I know you’d get angry if I tell you, but believe me I had no other options – I had to buy an Aluminum pot to cook from the vendor. ‘

She paused and then continued again. ‘The last one had worn out in several places. I couldn’t get myself to tell you this. But I have to cook rice as you know. The last two days I have been boiling rice in that earthen pot, but this morning even that broke.’

She paused again anticipating a reply from Jamal and continued, ‘but I have done something smart. I took this on credit from the vendor. Such a small bowl but he was asking two rupees for it. But I drove a hard bargain and made him agree to sell it to me at 75 paisa. As luck would have it, I didn’t even have that money to give him. I told him that let me check if there are any cracks in it today and I would pay him tomorrow. But he was so adamant. He would just not give in. I quickly had to wash the bowl and start steaming the rice on a half lit oven to prevent him from snatching it. I called him inside to show him the same. So he had to give in. He couldn’t have possibly taken his bowl away from the oven. ‘

Jamal mused over the thought whether the rice would taste different cooked in a new bowl. Would the pungency of the cheap rice be a bit diluted? Would the rice not get brittle as it cooled? It was amusing to notice how dolefulness smears shades of childish frivolousness on one’s imagination.

The rain didn’t show any indication of stopping the next morning.

It had started in the wee hours of the morning. A part of the room was already wet and damp with the water leaking from the roof. Thankfully the roof was slanted which prevented a larger leakage. Jamal was grateful for that. This arrangement saved the bedstead from getting soaked. Also the bedding and his saddlebags were saved along with the two kids. Jamal had thought that he would start early this morning so that he could catch the lady’s husband before he left for work, to recover his money. But the rain had raised a barricade to that design. Who knew if the rain would even stop today or not?

Amina walked in with a sullen face. ‘How can I go to work on a day like this? If I don’t report for duty Mrs. Chowdhury would be upset again.’

Amina is of the dark complexion but her hands and feet had become white with decay caused by excess exposure to water and detergents. As if her skin had started to rot.

Jamal said, ‘Let her get upset. What can one do if it is pouring like this?’

Amina shot a glance at the carefully stacked pile of clothes on the bedstead and replied, ‘As if what you say would make any difference. If she’s upset she would not give me the bonus during the Pujas. Last week I couldn’t go in morning because of Banu’s fever and she told me clearly that my absence can wrest me of my bonus.’

‘So what if she doesn’t give. We are not beggars Amina.’

‘This is no begging. All the other maids get their Puja bonus. We work throughout the year and the bonus is deservedly ours.’

Jamal gave her a smug look and said, ‘Bibi those are all old rules. No one follows them anymore. Just wait and see how many people get your Puja bonus this time. Do you feel there’s any rule or ethics left in this country? Why else would I be selling clothes on the streets even with a proper degree and you would be working as a house maid. ’

Amina sigs and says, ‘I think she had come to know that you would not let me work in any other house. Why else would she suddenly become so brazen? All the other maids leave their jobs at the drop of a hat’

Jamal could not let Amina work in any other house. Chowdhury Babu’s house was close to their home. There was no other man in that house except the old Chowdhury Babu. It was with a lot of covenant that he had agreed to let her work here. Besides he didn’t want to make Amina a classified house maid.

In the meantime, next door neighbor Paritosh’s ten year old boy came in. ‘Baba is asking for a new Gaamcha (towel). He said he would pay at the end of the month.’

Jamal replied ‘No. Tell him that I don’t sell on credit.’

He goes back only to come back again to ask for the price of the Gaamcha. After a while Paritosh walks in himself wrapped in a bed sheet.

‘Jamal I had always bought my Gaamchas and underwear on credit from my friend’s shop. But today I am being forced to buy in cash because of a misfortune. Would you believe someone can steal Gaamchas? And one, which I had been using for over a month?’

‘Stolen?’

‘Exactly. I have only one set of clothes that I wear to work and the Gaamcha that I use to take a bath. God knows who have filched it. I hope the one who have pinched my Gaamcha gets my rheumatism too. I thought I would go for my bath without any clothes then hesitated against it.’

Paritosh laughed opening his partially toothless mouth.

‘What happened to your Dhoti?’

‘Well you can say that had also been filched. The only difference is that it had been filched by and insider. It is now being used by my wife instead of her petticoat. She says she feels ashamed to wear her saree without anything underneath. I had to give it to her. It is ridiculous of her to afford such modesty at this age.’ Paritosh guffaws again his brazen laughter. He looks at Jamal’s sarees and says ‘I would have taken one if you would have given me credit. But you say it is against your business policy.’

Jamal kept quiet for a while and asked ‘What would you wear after coming home from work?’

‘Well if my wife returns my Dhoti I shall wear it else your Gaamcha  – I hope it would dry up by then. ‘

Once Paritosh left Amina asked ‘So how much did you earn sitting at home?’

‘Earn my foot. I had to sell him in cost price. ‘

‘Oh God! I thought the day had started propitiously and it’s a matter of time you would sell your entire merchandise once you go out.’

The oven had been set precariously so as to protect it from the leakage on the roof. Amina sat next to it chopping vegetables. Today it was only boiled vegetables and rice for lunch. They had not tasted Daal for a very long time now. It was not as if Jamal was completely bankrupt. He still had some cash saved in the old box, money he had made selling his merchandise. But it was kept safe as a capital funds to buy merchandise from the whole seller. There’s money but not the luxury to spend it. Who else but Jamal could realize the ascorbic irony of this self-restraint.   

The rain stopped after midday. The overcast gave way to streaks of blue skies from where sunrays stream in. Jamal got  ready to go out. Amina reminded him ‘Please leave the money for the Aluminum vessel else the vendor would be rude.’ 

Jamal wondered if he also could be rude and derisive towards that lady who had bought the saree from him in credit.  He was about to leave when he saw Paritosh also getting out.

‘Didn’t you go to office Paritosh Da?’

‘How can one get out in this rain?’

His office must be a very considerate one that allows half days to workers stopped by rains concluded Jamal.

‘Which way are you going?’ asked Jamal

‘Towards Bowbazar.”

The Feriwala must not be fixed to one particular locality. He had to go all over the city. The neighbourhood you visit today you can only come back here after a space of four to five days. The rain had given Jamal a bonus reprieve during the morning, so he sets off in full steam to make the most of whatever was left of the day towards a crowded precinct. The market is closer from that place, but it doesn’t affect his business. The women did visit the market for sarees, bed sheets etc. but not in this colony.

This block of the city was packed with houses almost falling on each other. He went shouting his wares. His voice had a couple of ladies ushering him to the landing of their building to see his sarees. While the ladies were busy looking at his stock another voice of a vendor was heard in the vicinity. This man was selling table cloths and ladies blouse. The ladies also called him in. Jamal was shocked to see the office clerk Paritosh walking in with his saddlebag containing table-cloths, blouse and frocks.

Paritosh gave him an understanding smile and said, ‘Surprised? Hang on I would tell you everything.’

Both got to sell a substantial amount of their wares. Jamal even got to sell his black and red Taangail to a middle aged woman with a hefty profit margin. Paritosh sold a few blouses and a frock. Looking at his vending ability Jamal deduced that Paritosh was quite experienced in this profession.

Once out in the streets Paritosh disclosed to him, ‘What to do brother? I didn’t have a job for the last few months. I tried hard but there is hardly any employment anywhere. So I thought why not try out your profession. I didn’t have much savings as you know’

‘But why did you hide it? Are you ashamed of this profession?’

‘Ashamed? Nonsense! One cannot afford to be ashamed on an empty stomach. But you know Jamal; I have just recently arranged a groom for my eldest daughter. The wedding is scheduled for the end of August. They have agreed to this matrimony knowing that I have a clerical job. What if they break the engagement knowing I peddle clothes on the street? This anxiety had thwarted me to confess my real profession. I don’t even carry my saddlebags home. I leave them at a friend’s shop and collect it the next morning. I plead to you Jamal; please do not breathe a word of this to anyone.’

‘I would never do that Paritosh da after knowing everything.’

‘Let me wear the pretense of a Government clerk till I can get my daughter married off happily then I would take this façade off. I might even go in front of her in laws house and shout my wares.’ Paritosh again let out his partially toothless chortle.

Well there was not much time for idyllic talk so they went their separate ways.

One more day came to an end. A dry half of a day in the monsoon months. Jamal started his journey back home. He decided to pay a visit to the lady ignoring the desperate fatigue and exhaustion that he was feeling then. It was also a long detour from home. If her husband was home then recovery would be easier.

As he approached the house he saw that the main door was open today and a man hardly in his twenties was standing on the portico smoking a cigarette. Jamal pointed towards the closed door where he had made his transactions to the young man and asked ‘Can you please tell me if the Babu who lives in this room is at home or not?’  

The young man nonchalantly replies, ‘I don’t know - maybe. You can always knock.’

Jamal gave a couple of hesitant knocks on the old dilapidated door. The little boy opened the door and looked at him.

‘Is your father at home?’

‘Baba has not gone out today. He has very high fever.’

A man’s voice came from inside, ‘who is it Bablu?’

‘That saree vendor Baba.’

A man walked out to the door. He had wrapped himself with an old tattered mattress. His eyes were red with high fever. The vendor he had met yesterday outside his house, who had sold his wife the Aluminum vessel stood in front of him. Seeing him Jamal almost forgot his intentions to collect his dues for the saree, instead all he could think of was that since this man had high fever he would not be back in a while to collect money from his wife.      



Wednesday, November 16, 2016

Super Moon


পৃথিবীর সমস্ত অশান্তির মূলে

আমার মনে হয় তুমি।

তোমার পাপের মত অন্ধকার চুল

তোমার ঝিনুকের মত ঠোঁট

তোমার অজন্তা ইলোরা বুক

কোমর

আলী আকবরের বন্দিশের মত পা

আর ২২ বছর আগে তোমার সাথে কাটানো

দম বন্ধ কয়েকটা বিকেল।

আজ ২২ বছর ধরে

আমার হাত ঘড়িটা বন্ধ।

 

শোন! সুপার মুনের ইজ্জতটা রাখ,

ইঞ্চি খানেক কাছে এসো।

বিপরীতগামী দুটো স্বপ্নর জন্ম দিই।

Thursday, November 3, 2016

ভাঙা কাঠের জানালা
তুমি কি শিখিয়েছ আমায়?
স্বপ্ন দেখা? একলা থাকা?
তাইত একা ঠায় দাঁড়িয়ে আছি জানালার সামনে,
দেখছি মেঘের দু’পা ফাঁক করে ...
সূর্য তার আলো ঢেলে দিচ্ছে এই শহরে।
আর আমার চায়ের কাপে অন্ধকার
আমি কলকাতার কালো চুলের ভেতর মুখ লুকিয়ে
সারাজীবন শুয়ে আছি
স্বপ্ন দেখব বলে, একলা থাকব ভেবে
স্বপ্ন দেখতে পাশপোর্ট লাগেনা
কলকাতার রাস্তায়, লন্ডনের রাস্তায়, প্যারিসে
কিম্বা তোর বেডরুমে অনাবিল যাওয়া যায়।
কিন্তু এ কোন পৃথিবীর সামনে দাঁড়িয়ে আছি আমি?
কেউ স্মৃতি ভিক্ষা করছে, কেঊ বিস্মৃতি কিনছে
হে শরৎকাল, হে সন্ধ্যাবেলা
যাবার আগে আমায় কিছু দিয়ে যাও


কেন আমার আর বৃষ্টিতে ভেজা সেই মেয়েগুলোর কথা মনে পড়েনা।
আমার শেষ ছবিটা খুব শিঘ্রই আঁকব আমি আমার মৃতদেহের পাশে বসে।

Wednesday, June 22, 2016

Check Mate (From Life in Short and other Stories)

It was an everyday afternoon in August when Amiyo Ranjan Sen, the senior English teacher at Budhulia Boys High School, Nadia learnt to play the game of chess. It was quite late in life to learn the game. He had always been severely antagonistic towards this game. For it was beyond his comprehension of what covert pleasure or fulfillment could two people possibly find by staring expectantly at a chess board for hours. To him it was a deplorable and criminal waste of good time. But still he had to learn the game. Kanti Babu, Kanti Shekhar Dey, the Geography teacher of the same school was his old and faithful friend, also an astute Chess player. He had been after Amiyo Babu for ages to learn the game. Amiyo Babu could not refute such a persistent request coming especially from such a dear associate. Kanti Babu was an avid chess player. During the tiffin break on that day Kanti Babu taught Amiyo Babu the nuances of the game – how a pawn moves only single boxes, how the knight can dauntlessly jump two and a half squares, how the Bishop goes crosswise, well everything that Kanti Babu could have possibly taught him from his association with this game for the last fifteen years.
‘It is a brain game Amiyo. It sharpens your mind.’ Kanti Babu assured Amiyo. Although it completely escaped Amiyo Babu how such a dull and drab activity could possibly sharpen one’s mind, but in the very first game he beat Kanti Babu.
‘I guess I haven’t played my real game,’ sniggered Kanti Babu looking visibly pale. ‘What about another hand?’
However there wasn’t time for another game, it was time for the fourth period English Composition class. Amiyo Babu got up silently but the game went on swiveling in his mind. That day he couldn’t teach well. Normally Amiyo Sir’s classes are always very interesting and involving, but today it seemed insipid. This was not a regular occurrence. Even the students could feel that.
Another two games were played after the final school bell had rung and Amiyo Babu won both of them easily. At this Kanti Babu gave a defeated sneer and said, ‘I guess I have to be more focused on the defensive with you.’
In the third game Kanti Babu was exceptionally cautious and was making his moves after much contemplation. He became oblivious to everything around him; even his evening cup of tea which had been a ritual for the last 30 years was utterly forgotten. The game carried on till late evening and Bacchu Mian the gatekeeper was detained much to his anguish till late hours. In spite of all this Amiyo Babu won again and again. After the final game Kanti Babu looked visibly remorse and crestfallen. Seeing this Amiyo told his friend, ‘You seem to be quite upset Kantida?’
‘Shall we play one last round? I am sure your beginner’s luck would give in.’ was Kanti Babu’s reply. The words painfully wedged out of his lips. ‘This time I would play super defensive.’
‘Not today. I have two tuitions to do.’
‘Ahh! How much time would one game take. Come on sit’ was the irate reply.
The last game ended in a stalemate. Kanti Babu was breathing heavily by now.
Amiyo said ‘Well let’s pack up now.’
‘One more.’
‘No more. It’s quite late already.’ Amiyo was firm this time.
‘Nonsense Amiyo! It’s not late. See the corner tea shop is still open.’ There was persuasion in Kanti Babu’s tone.
Amiyo Babu gave in one more time but nothing change - his winning streak continued. The word spread shortly within the townsfolk of Budhulia about Amiyo Ranjan Sen’s amazing Chess playing capabilities. That this man is invincible in a game of Chess spread like wildfire. A title, that Amiyo Ranjan Sen had conclusively retained for the next fifteen years.
Fifteen years is a long time. During this time Amiyo Ranjan Sen lost three teeth, developed Cataract in his eyes and was duly promoted as the Assistant Head Master of the Budhulia Boy’s School from where he retired on a cloudy July afternoon. In the Letter of Appreciation that was being conferred to him it was prominently mentioned – ‘…Amiyo Ranjan Sen is an uncrowned king in the world of Chess. He created history for himself and the village Budhulia by defeating West Bengal’s champion chess player Hariram Bhaduri not once – but thrice.’
This was no lie. Hariram Bhaduri’s sister in law was a resident at Budhulia. It was completely unfortunate of him to have agreed to play Amiyo Babu out of sheer curiosity and to get a chance to ridicule this village idiot, when he had come visiting his dearest relative. He had anticipated that, like a typical practice in the rural areas, it is customary to exaggerate about any player even if he is mediocre – and this man would be no different. He judged this short, whitish and timid looking man as a puny competitor. Even when Amiyo Ranjan Sen had made his first few moves, Hari Ram had chuckled inside seeing the ignorance of his competitor on the basic opening techniques in chess that anybody who had even read a book or two about the game would know. It was obvious to Hari Ram that this man knew as much about Chess as a cat would know of Golf. As a result of which by the fifth move Hari Ram’s pawn was in a position to attack Amiyo Ranjan’s king. He even gave out an insolent chuckle as he saw this. But that smile died a flat death when he saw this timid little man overpowering him suddenly with two knights on two sides snatching victory. Hari Ram Bhaduri was completely bewildered at this loss, but the people of Budhulia who had gathered around to watch game remained conclusively nonchalant- as if it’s only natural for their Amiyo Ranjan Babu to win in chess.
Hari Ram’s trip to his sister in laws house was further marred when the news of this match was published in the local newspaper – ‘West Bengal’s champion chessman loses at the hand of Budhulia Boy’s school’s veteran English teacher Amiyo Ranjan Sen. It is worth mentioning that Amiyo Babu has never lost a single chess match in the last 10 years.’
It was really incredible that Amiyo Babu had remained unbeaten in Chess for all those years. People used to come from far and away across the country to play him. Once the secretary of the Chess Federation of Bengal brought in a European player to play Amiyo Babu. It was the biggest thing that could have happened at Budhulia an insignificant village in Nadia district. The whole village had crammed in at the venue. People who understood nothing about chess had also come to witness this spectacular incident. The school was adjourned after the first break.
The secretary of the Chess Federation came up to Amiyo Babu and quietly breathed in his ears, ‘Be very careful with this player. He is an eminent player from Belgium.’
‘Yes Sir. I am always careful when I play.’ Replied Amiyo Babu.
‘Don’t rush your moves Amiyo Babu, Ok.’ quipped the secretary.
Amiyo Babu nodded diligently in confirmation.
‘Try the Giuoco Piano trap with him. I hope you know the Giuoco Piano trap?’ said the secretary.
‘No sir. I do not.’ Mentioned Amiyo Babu very calmly.
The secretary scowled at him hearing this. His scowl deepened when he saw Amiyo Babu return a PK-4 move with a R4. ‘What the hell are you doing? Are you experimenting with this man? What was this move?’ coughed the secretary in complete disgust.
Even the Belgian muttered something softly. The secretary’s face had blemished by now and he sputtered,’ Oh! It is such an insult to my name that I tried to show this Belgian grandmaster an untrained rural talent.’
Three games were played, one was a stalemate and Amiyo Babu won two other. The secretary was bewildered.
‘Why don’t you come to play at Calcutta?’
‘I have tuitions. Besides I am constantly ailing. Asthma you know.’ smiled Amiyo Babu.
‘No. No. Please do come over Amiyo Babu’ cajoled the secretary.
‘I am a poor man Sir. I cant afford the expenses.’
‘How can you be a poor man Amiyo Babu?’ The secretary was almost hugging him now.
So it was but natural that on that cloudy July afternoon during his farewell speech, Amiyo Babu’s prowess in chess kept coming back as his laurels. Before the symposium was to end the chairman of the meeting who was also the secretary of the school’s governing body and a local MLA, Bholanath Borgi announced boisterously that as an extension of respect towards Mr. Amiyo Ranjan Sen, the glory of Budhulia he had taken a special step. He declared that he would donate a cheque of fifteen thousand rupees to the school fund to be given to anybody who could beat Amiyo Babu, else the money would be absorbed by the school.
The announcement was received amidst tumultuous applause. The Head Master showed the audience the cheque that was handed over to him. Nobody could have imagined that Bholanath Borgi could pull such a dramatic stunt like that.
The next month the monsoons intensified and this had considerably aggravated Amiyo Babu’s asthma. He felt severe bouts of breathlessness. He tried breathing very hard but only succeeded in taking meagre gasps. His jugular veins started swelling up due to this effort. Even in this state he sat down to play which would probably be his last game of chess. This time he was playing to lose. Today he would play and lose to his old friend, colleague and teacher in chess Kanti Babu. Kanti Babu would win the Fifteen Thousand prize money which can then be used for his treatment and also to buy some warm clothing for the approaching winters. Amiyo Babu hardly had any warm clothing. It took a lot of effort to get Kanti Babu to agree to this scheme of things. It didn’t really matter to Amiyo Babu then if he lost.
The match was scheduled to take place inside the school library. Kanti Babu was playing the aggressive mode. A big crowd of curious onlookers had gathered to see this match. As the match progressed Amiyo Sen’s condition started deteriorating. He lost his castle in a wrong move. Next his Knight was pinned. A mild buzzing rose in the room. Amiyo Babu observed that tears were pouring out of Kanti Babu’s eyes. The invincible Chess king of 15 years was going to lose his crown. Kanti Babu looked pale and his hands shook while he made his moves.
‘Amiyo Babu’s condition doesn’t look good at all. observed Radha Churn De, the village homeopath doctor.
‘It’s nothing. It is all Amiyo’s cunning ploy. You would see the tables turning soon.’ Replied Kanti Babu.
‘Are you crying Kantida?’ whispered Amiyo Babu in a strained voice.
‘No, no, something in my eyes I guess.’ Kanti Babu started wiping his eyes in a palliative manner as if to take out that imaginary something from his eyes.
Was there an aphotic trace of smile that appeared on Amiyo Babu’s lips? He challenged Kanti Babu’s king with his knight. Kanti Babu moved his king one square. Second check was with his pawn. Kanti Babu’s king shifted one more square. It was as if from an imperceptible corner of the board Amiyo Babu produced his castle.
‘Oh God!’ yawped Radha Churn De in complete surprise. A
miyo Babu advanced his castle in front of his pawn and whispered ‘Check Mate.’
Amiyo Ranjan Sen couldn’t lose his final game of chess even with all that effort. The pride of Budhulia, the uncrowned king of chess died a pauper and without treatment on 10th September, 1981. It was a Wednesday. Two days of mourning was announced at Budhulia Boys High School after his death.

Sunday, June 19, 2016

A Strange Story

“Good Afternoon Sir, may I interest you to an incredible story?” The words came from my side as an awkward surprise from a bystander at Howrah station. A complete stranger. It was an otherwise pleasant face. A 40 something gentleman, maybe even at the rear end of forty with shoulder length hair - greying delicately at the sides. He had a broad capacious forehead, a salient nose, thin lips, overall quite a prominent looking gentleman. But still it is not every day you get invited by strange men at bus stops or railway stations to hear stories. I was visibly perturbed. Might even say I was a bit irate too. It had been a longish August day and due to the monsoons and incessant rain I had missed my scheduled local back home. As I looked at him with amazement written all over my face, without wavering a bit he wanted to know if I was waiting for a train. I said yes and out of sheer politeness asked if he was also waiting for the same train.
The gentleman replied that he was not going anywhere, but had come to receive his wife who was travelling back to Calcutta. There was a pleasant geniality about his overall countenance. ‘She is coming from Lalgola and the train is running two hours behind schedule because of water logging on the tracks. I didn’t feel like returning home. It would be a waste of time to go and come back again. So I decided to wait.’ A situation quite common if you have stayed at West Bengal.
That was all that I knew of him. On the basis of this sparse familiarity when someone says ‘Would you like to listen to an interesting story?’ it becomes quite daunting. I am not one of those who like to listen to interesting stories from strangers. Besides I have often noticed that self-proclaimed interesting stories are rarely interesting at the end.
I remained silent. I hoped that the gentleman would be wise enough to understand my dissent from my silence; else I would have to listen to his story. There was nowhere else to shift in that crowded platform.
As it was in this case the gentleman in question was definitely not wise. He took out his “Paaner Dibey” (Box containing Betel leaves and other paraphernalia, quite popular till 90s in Bengal) and fixing himself a Paan started his story.
‘I am sure you find this awkward and even a bit disconcerting at my request when suddenly a complete stranger coerces you to listen to his story. It must be. But you know the trouble is that today is very exclusive day for me and on a day like this I can’t but help myself from telling this ironic story to someone – anyone. So if I have your attention I would start.’ There was an almost uncanny enchantment in his persuasion.
‘Sure.’
‘Would you like to have one?’ He said beamingly offering me one of his Paan.
‘No Thank you.’ I curtly replied.
‘Please try one these are special leaves. I am sure you would like it.’ He said again with earnestness.
‘Do you also offer Paan along with your stories on special days like this?’ I couldn’t but hide my annoyance.
He started laughing. There was a childlike innocence in his gait. Here was this late fortyish man, quite attractive I must add dressed impeccably in white Dhoti and Punbabi (Kurta) who has braved the Calcutta monsoons to receive his wife trying his best to tell me a story – an interesting story. I gave in.  
‘It was almost 20 years back. I was studying chemistry honors at Presidency College. It is dark in here so you probably cannot see me well, but I must say that I am quite impressive in my appearance. 20 years back I looked like a prince. Not only that even my friends at college had nick named me - The Prince. But the funny thing is that I had hardly any impact amongst the women students at the college. I don’t know if you have noticed or not – women are rarely attracted to a man’s features. Women can see everything about a man – save his looks. So while I was at college I did not have the good fortune to befriend women or have them come up and talk to me. Even I, being quite shy could never approach them either. There was a significant reason for that – I stammered. I couldn’t utter a simple sentence without halting a zillion times just like the State Buses on a busy Dharmatalla Street.’
I interrupted him at this point. ‘I don’t see any stammering in you now. You are talking quite placidly.’
‘Ah! My wobble was cured after my marriage. But it was quite formidable before I got married. I had been through various kinds of treatments. From Alleopathy, Homeopathy to putting marbles in my mouth while talking, even wearing various rings and talismans – I had tried it all. Anyways coming back to the story at college my pass subject was Mathematics. There was a certain girl in my pass course who had besotted me beyond comparison. I used to choke every time she was in front of me. What a face, delicate like a Renoir painting. Her hair long and fell over her waist like river. Her gait was like Viennese concert. Her eyes were the most endearing part of her feature like shells – beautiful and exquisite and always smiling as if alluring you. Have you ever fallen in love sir?’
‘No sir.’ I remarked.
‘Well in that case you would probably not understand my state of mind those days. The first day I saw her, a feverish craving had come over me. I couldn’t sleep the whole night. My throat was getting perched. I probably had finished a few gallon of water that night. The whole night in my trance I sauntered the college corridors in my mind.’
‘In a week we had two pass lectures those days. It was unbearably painful. What was wrong in having a pass lecture every day? Two lectures a week meant two times fifty minutes – just hundred minutes. Hundred minutes of looking at her would pass by a flint of an eye. Besides the girl in question would often bunk lectures and spend time at the canteen with her friends. There had been times when she missed back to back lectures for two weeks in a row. Those days, I almost wanted to terminate this pain of longing once and for all by jumping from the terrace and end this miserable existence. You were lucky you had never fallen in love so you would not understand the torment that this kind of passion ushers in.’
‘You didn’t mention her name. What was her name?’ I said getting a bit interested now.
‘Her name was Mouri. Well that was what everybody called her. Those days I didn’t know that. Not just her name, I was equally ignorant about everything about her. Where she stayed? Which department she belonged to? All I knew was that she had Mathematics as her Pass course and that she came to college in a Black Ambassador car WMA 8912.’
‘You had never enquired about her?’ I asked in surprise.
‘No I never did. For I was always occupied with a phobia that if I go exploring about her, I may get to know things like – she is already in love with someone else which would finish me. You would know my state if I tell you one incident – one day after the lectures were over I saw her talking to another boy from the class. They seemed quite engrossed in their conversation. They were laughing together. A shiver took over me at this sight. I felt nauseated. That day I didn’t attend any more lectures but returned home. Shortly I had very high fever and delirium.’
‘Very strange.’ I remarked.
‘Yes, strange indeed. Two years went by like this. Academically I had degraded considerably. Then one day I did something crazy. I walked up to her chauffer and procured her address. Then I wrote her an anonymous letter. I don’t recollect exactly what I had written in that letter – but its subject matter was that I wanted to marry her. She must give her consent at my behest. Till she agrees I would sit on a hunger strike in front of her house indefinitely. Well those days hunger strikes were quite in vogue. So are you finding my narrative interesting?’
‘Yes I do. Then what happened. You sent her the letter by post?’ I quipped.
‘No I took the letter myself to the address given. It was an old house somewhere at Ballygunje. The house had a big iron gate that opened into a garden before the house started. I gave the letter to the gatekeeper telling him that there is a lady in this house – who goes to college – this letter was meant for her. The gatekeeper obediently took the letter and went inside. Shortly he was back and informed me that he had given the letter to the “Didi” but she said that she doesn’t know me. I told him that she was right. She doesn’t know me. But I know her and that was enough.’
‘Saying this I took my position outside the gate as per my corresponded intentions. You can well understand that it was complete insanity. Actually I had lost the capacity to think. All logic had temporarily abandoned me. Everything seemed futile in front of my passionate fervor. Anyways I stood in front of the gate from 9 in the morning till 4 in the afternoon without much happening save the first floor curtains squinting at intervals or some annoyed faces gazing at times from the balcony. At about 5 PM an angry gentleman came out towards me and said “Enough of this madness. Go home now.” I replied even more firmly that I shall not move.’
‘We would then have to call the police. They would take you away came the offended retort.
‘In my insane obsession I told him to ahead.’
‘You rascal, couldn’t you find some other place for your hooliganism.’ He spat out.
‘Please don’t use abusive. I am not being profane here. I replied. The man turned back in fury and went inside. Then it started raining. It was one of those torrential thundershowers as if the sky had also been rabid by the tempest that had possessed me. I stood there getting drenched without much ado. Nothing would have affected me then. But I could make out that I was shivering and slowly coming down with temperature. I was out in the sun the whole day and now this sudden change of climate had taken its toll on my body. But a frenzied recklessness had taken over me. Nothing else mattered. My body was slowly succumbing to fatigue and hunger but I was unmoved. I was getting fainting spells, but I stood. By this time a curious crowd of people had gathered around me asking me what the matter was. Why am I standing there getting drenched? I told them to mind their own business and that I was a run away from an insane asylum.’
‘I guess the news of this queer incident was also relayed from her house to friends and relatives of the family by telephone as I saw around 3 cars enter her house through the gates. The passengers of those cars casted a gaze of utter disgust towards me and entered the house.’
‘It was 9 PM by now. The rain didn’t show any signs to stop. My body was burning with fever. My legs felt weak and I couldn’t stand any more. So I squatted next to the gates. The gatekeeper came and whispered in my ears that the Sahib is calling the police, but Didi is not agreeing. She is crying at your state. So do not move from your stance. Now that was inspiring.’
‘Once it struck 11 PM at a nearby house, I saw the portico lights light up. The girl came out of her living quarters. Behind her trailed out almost everybody who stayed in that house but no one crossed the porch. The girl came up to me and said “Why are you doing this madness?” I was shocked. For this was not the girl from my Mathematics Pass course lectures. This was somebody else, whom I had never seen before now. The chauffeur of the black Ambassador had given me a wrong address, probably intentionally.’
‘The girl spoke very tenderly to me and implored me to come inside and eat something. I tried to get up and tell her that this all is a very big mistake. You are not the woman who had besotted all this insanity. You are someone else. But looking at her affectionate eyes I couldn’t. For before this no women had ever looked at me with such fondness.’
‘I was so weak that I could barely walk. Noticing this she gave me her hand for support and asked me to hold it. Everyone who stood at the porch was looking at us with stiff disbelief. The girl stretched out her hand at me completely oblivious to her family and disdaining their resentful gaze. It was not humanly possible for any man to reject this gesture of profound love that she expressed at that moment by holding my hand. I held her hand. I have been holding her hand since the last 20 years. But sometimes I feel this uncanny restlessness. I feel an incredible desire to tell my wife about this incredible miscue. But I fail. Then I look for some stranger like you to tell my story. I tell my story to strangers as I know this wouldn’t ever reach my wife’s ears. Well I need to go now. My train is here.’
Saying this he got up abruptly and without as much looking back at me he walked towards the platform. In a distance I could see the glaring light of the engine tracing itself inside the station. The train was indeed there. 
      
 Deepanjan Banerjee
Dubai: 16/06/16

Wednesday, June 15, 2016


কাল ভোররাতে আমার মৃত্যূ দেখলাম

কাল ভোররাতে আমার মৃত্যূ দেখলাম
না পাওয়া প্রেম, অষাড় ভোগের জানালা দিয়ে দেখা মৃত্যূ।
আমার খুব কাছের বন্ধুরা সোল্লাসে স্লোগান দিছছিল
শালা গেছে বাঁচা গেছে।
হিয়েরোগ্লাফিক্সে লেখা এপিটাফটা আঠা দিয়ে জোড়া...
পুরনো প্রেমিকারা নালার কালো জলের মত তলপেট খুলে হাসছিল
পাড়ার বন্ধুরা আজ অফিস কেটে মলএ বারগার খেতে যাবে
তাদের তিনমণি বউদের নিয়ে…যারা এক সময় আমার খাটের তলায়
বহু দুশ্চিন্তার প্রহর কাটিয়েছে...ঈর্ষা করেছে একে অপরকে
তারাই পাছা দুলিয়ে বলবে
সখী এবার স্পষ্ঠ কথা দিয়ে কষ্ট পাওয়ার দিন শেষ।
কবিতা দিয়ে আর প্রতিশোধ নিতে ও পারবেনা।
ফুলের মধ্যে শিঊলি ই আজ ফুটবে...তবে দেরীতে।
লাল ঘরে ঘরে এখন কমলা আলো
দূর থেকে দেখতে পেলাম কাঁটা বেধাঁনো আমার নগ্ন মৃতদেহ
একলা শিশুর মত নিশ্চিন্তে ঘুমোচ্ছে...কিচ্ছু যায় আসে না তার
দূরে মুখ লুকিয়ে কাঁদছিল একটি মেয়ে যাকে ৩০ টাকায় কিনেছিলাম
শুধু বিদায় নেওয়া হল না।
আমি এক অন্ধকার থেকে আর এক অন্ধকার এ মুখ লুকোলাম।

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